Kreatively Kayla
Monday, January 6, 2014
The best unintentional prank I've ever pulled
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Off Line Adventures
Kayla
Sunday, September 15, 2013
The White Queen : My Opinion
If you love books as much as I do you can also read the books that this show came from: Check them out here.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Casting For The City Of Bones Movie : What I Think
Thursday, June 20, 2013
An Update To My Last Blog: A Little Surprise and The Most Incredible Experience
I honestly don't even know how to start this post, things have not gone exactly as planned over the last few weeks. It's like dejavu - I was just talking about how my plans and God's plans were a bit different in my last post "A Little Surprise and The Most Incredible Experience"... Well it seems that when I think I am starting to understand what He has planned for my life He reminds me that I will never fully understand just what His plans are.
I went in to my "first" prenatal OB appointment for this pregnancy Friday, June 7th and my doctor couldn't find the baby's heartbeat. She assured me that this sometimes happens because the baby is so small still and can hide pretty easily but she wanted to get me in to have an emergency ultrasound done just so we could put my mind at ease and I wouldn't have to wait all weekend for some answers. Unfortunately that ultrasound didn't put my mind at ease, instead it relayed information I didn't want to believe. The first words out of the ultrasound technician's mouth were that she was not allowed to say anything one way or another and that I would have to wait for the radiologist to go over the scans and get back to my doctor. That alone told me that the news wasn't going to be anything I wanted to hear. Don't they know those words are a dead giveaway? Then when I asked if she was able to find a heartbeat and she said "No but the radiologist is much more experienced and will talk to your doctor about the results so we don't know anything for sure until then" It only confirmed what I refused to believe.... After seeing my little angel on the monitor, not moving and waiting for what seemed like an eternity I got the call from my doctor. There in fact was not a heartbeat, and I was only waiting for my body to realize that the baby was no longer alive. I was waiting to have a miscarriage. She told me what to expect and what to look out for. I prayed for days for them to be wrong, for there to be some sort of miracle and for my baby to be alive and ok inside of me.... For a whole week I was torn between wanting the miscarriage to happen already if it was going to happen, being completely torn apart and wishing and praying for it all to be some sort of mistake, and for this horrible experience to be some sort of nightmare I could wake up from, not wanting to believe it to be true. For a whole week I could do nothing but wait for the most horrible day of my life yet, and cry, and be angry and ask over and over again "why??". I had just seen the baby's tiny heart beating almost 7 weeks before all of this. Why was this happening??? HOW was this happening?!
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
A Little Surprise and The Most Incredible Experience
I have been DIEING to write this post! If you haven’t found out already, we are expecting baby #3 in December! Surprised?! Yeah, so are we! Don’t get me wrong, I REALLY wanted another baby, just not quite so soon… I mean Serenity is getting ready to go into first grade and Destiny into preschool… I kinda had “other plans,” or so I thought anyway haha! Isn’t that how these things seem to work though? Apparently God has something a little different in mind…
So now we get to the most incredible experience, you know, aside from becoming a mommy all over again… Seeing a 6 1/2 week old embryo’s baby’s heart beat *April 18th*… Yes, I got to see both of my daughters heart beats on an ultrasound screen but never as early as six weeks! After being pregnant for only a month and a half – Six short weeks – That little life inside of you (that a lot of “prochoice” people refuse to call a life *or even a baby*) has a beating HEART. It is the tiniest little flicker of pixels on a screen, but still a beating heart nonetheless. Getting to see this so early for the very first time completely blew me away. I knew by 6 weeks a baby has a heart, but seeing it beating makes it so much more REAL. I was even more blessed to not only be able to see this with my own eyes but I had a wonderful ultrasound tech who gave me a CD with a little video showing the tiny heartbeat.
*maybe I will post that video later *
Now not only do I get to be a mommy to yet another little energy syphon but I recently found out I get to share the joys with a good friend Cassondra who is going to be a mommy for the very FIRST time! I am SO excited for her! I am also so excited that we are due so darn close together… Try December 1st (her) and December 9th (me)! *No this was definitely NOT planned haha* I am not looking forward to the blood tests, in my opinion that is worse than labor haha!!! I am however looking forward to finding out weather we are having a little boy or another little girl. Either way I’m ok as long as it’s a healthy baby.
Until next time,
Kayla
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Game of Thrones from my perspective
I couldn’t bare to watch the whole episode. I have never felt so violated in my life and I had to turn away from the TV a few times. I’m sure this is where those of you who watch the show will turn your heads and close my blog but just hear me out. To me, in watching the very first episode of Game of Thrones, I felt it was definitely a “mans” show, about very jealous, disrespectful “men” seeking more power than they deserve. I can’t think of any reason a self respecting woman would enjoy the show (please if there are any of you out there, leave me a comment and share your perspective, I’d like to try to understand). Not only did I feel violated from sheer lack of respect given to women in this episode, but I also have not watched a show with so much nudity! HAHA! Now I probably sound like a total prude, I can assure you I’m not, and again I have only seen the first episode of this Game of Thrones show. I’ve been told it gets “better” but I doubt the plot can get much better and I don’t think I can enjoy watching a show that brings women down so much.